Why did I decide to become a Nurse?

Why are decisions getting harder?

Why is it so hard to know what you REALLY want?

Why does LA have to be so far from the Phillippines?

Why do we have to have economic problems?

Why can’t I just finish school already?

WHY AM I IN THE PHILIPPINES?!

…. i’m slipping. hopefully not permanently. i hope this will just pass. i really miss cali, especially my family! Mommy & Enzo just left yesterday.. it’s hard.. i mean i have family here… but it’s NOT the same. I rather.. be there than here. idk. we’ll see, we’ll see.

wow, so i just finished my first day of college.

first day of school in the Philippines.

first day on the road to my path of Nursing.

first day to make new friends.

first to determine whether this course is what will get me to where i want to be in the future :)

SO FAR, so good :) lol people here are really friendly & going to school HERE just makes me wish that i was back home in SG. I miss that school, I really do. BUT i hope the experiences i have here will be the same as the ones i had in high school.. when it comes to changes, it doesn’t really hit me til laaater on. I live by the saying ” you never know what you have til its gone” does that mean, i take things for granted while i have it? Or does it just mean that i go with the flow of life, not worrying about this or that so that i can experience every moment to the fulllest. Idk whatever it is… i guess it’s working out for me :) SO, i’m looking forward to the rest of the days to come. I MISS CALI DEARLY & all the people nestled in the city of LA <33

Day FIVE in the Philippines. During these few days, all I’ve done is EAT, SLEEP & GO TO THE MALL. I hate this quarantine affair. I wanna go to school already, staying at home only makes me think to myself “Damn, I could be in Cali right now hanging out with my friends” BUT i’m here just waiting, waiting to start school. I’m excited to start but at the same time I’m really scared. Scared because I don’t know if I’m going to be liked or hated. You never know what to expect here in the Philippines, atleast I DONT KNOW what to expect. It’s a different life out here. SURE things are cheaper but it’s also dangerous. You don’t even know if you’re going to make it across the street when you cross XP But as of right now, I’m still good & I’m open to whatever comes my way. I’m just worried about my family & friends back in Cali, I miss them, A LOT and even though I can talk to them on AIM or MYSPACE or Facebook, it’s really not the same. When I see their pictures I wish i could be there too, having a good time. As for now, I got 6 months til i see them again :( 

Tell me what? This goes out to everyone, who last lost someone that they truly love. CHECK IT OUT. Current location, Philippines. I don’t know how I got myself into this but I have a good feeling about this, for now at least. It’s like that saying, “When life gives you lemons, MAKE LEMONADE!” [yeah I’m pretty sure that’s it] but my lemonade better be strawberry lemonade because I like my life sweet not sour. SO I created this tumblr and dedicate my first post to Glenn Rivera aka my Ghandi, lol. I hope through this blog thing I will be able to dig deeper and truly realize what’s most important to me. Sometimes I tend to underestimate myself. But when I jot down these thoughts that are constantly racing through my mind, it will help me STOP and think. So wish me luck and to all of you who read this, KEEP IN TOUCH PLEASE.